I really, really, really need to move out of my house.  So if anyone feels the same and wants a roommate, let me know.  And that goes along with me needing new friends.  Or at least more friends, cuz things are pretty shitty right now.  I dont feel like anything I say or do matters or is good enough.  Im not respected and maybe I dont always deserve it, but every once in awhile I thinkI do.  I just need a change of scenery, ya know?  Bryan, I dont know how often you read this, but I totally am getting how you felt the last two summers.  I mean, I knew before, but now I know just a little bit more.  And I am sorry.  And if I lived closer and had a better car, I would totally visit you, I hope you know that.  So, if anyone wants to roadtrip to see Bryan and has a better car than me, Im in.

The one upside lately (actually two) is that I have a boyfriend, although it's kind of weird calling him that right now because I havent actually seen him since we've been an item.  He is at a cooking school out in Arizona, but I will get to see him at Christmas.  The other good thing is that I am going to Las Vegas in a couple weeks.  And at least there, even if I do get shafted by the people Im going with, which is basically inevitable at this point, I can have my own fun all by myself.  I will drop $150 to see Celine Dion again if it comes down to it. 

I thought Id at least try to end on a good note.  This isnt supposed to be a pity party, I just dont really have anyone to talk to lately.  Hope things are going well for everyone!

Wow, it's been awhile, but Im graduated now, so I've been busy.  HA, that's a big, fat lie.  The highlight of graduation was that a gynecologist was our commencement speaker.  Other than that, I have no news.  Nothing exciting.  I have sent out a couple resumes, one to a job in Charlotte (near Lansing) and the other one is in Ann Arbor.  I also applied to the new IKEA, just cuz I think it would be awesome to start working in a new store.  Plus, when I get my own place, I can buy all my stuff there.  Target is giving me crap hours, even worse than last summer.  I haven't worked since last Friday and I work tomorrow and Thursday, then not again until next Tuesday, not to mention I have been working in Food Ave., which is boring as hell most of the time.  Softball is going ok, we lost the first game, and have split the last two double-headers.  All I need is some inspiration to get off my fat, lazy butt.  I might do a triathlon next month, for the heck of it.  It is something that I have always wanted to do and it's close to home.  I hope I don't die doing it, haha.  Peace.

Ugh, I hate homework with a passion.  Moreso probably because I dont usually have a lot of it.  But since I was gone last week and this is the last week of my two online classes, I have a ton to do.  As in two big papers, discussion posts, journal entries.... BLAH.  Have I started those papers yet, you ask?  And the answer is no.  I am not motivated whatsoever.

But on the upside, I am talking to an old friend from home, who I dont get to talk to much when Im at school.  I have to say I am kinda excited for summer and bitching about Novi Target with him.  I just like being complimented on things, even if it is something kinda odd.  Little things can just brighten up your day, ya know?  Especially when they distract you from homework.  So, just dont talk to me on Sunday night... or I might hate you at 11:30 pm when I have to write a 10-page paper in 30 minutes.  Or... if anyone needs a little extra cash,  I will pay you to do it for me.

So, I really should be sleeping right now.... seeing as how I have to get up in less than 4 hours, but I never have time to do the things I want to do... or just relax.  I have been working at both my internship and Target for the last 2 days and I have to do it again tomorrow.  The only thing that is getting me through is seeing all my Mexico peeps tomorrow night for picture party.  It was such an awesome time and none of us wanted to leave.

I love shoveling rocks and sand.  I love sweating in 90 degree heat.  I love sunburn.  I love eating tortillas and beans every day.  I love little kids climbing all over me.  I love being dirty.  I love cold bucket showers with huge spiders.  I love having to throw my toilet paper in the trash rather than in the toilet.  I love not having water from 7pm until 5am every day.  I love not understanding about 98% of what people are saying.  I love young Mexican boys who want American girlfriends, especially when they already have a Mexican one, and especially when they are younger than 15.  I love having to take a water bottle to brush my teeth because I cant drink the water.  I love meat and cheese quesadillas for breakfast.  I love using the outdoors as a bathroom.  None of this is sarcasm.  I love Mexico.  I want to live there and be with those people.  It is such a different lifestyle that I really think I could follow.  Ive never really felt that way about a place before, at least not where the feeling was still there almost a week later.  I know that the people I was with also had a lot to do with the fun I had, but even if I was alone I think I would still love it (as long as someone could translate for me).

Ok, that has been waiting to get out for a couple days... but I dont feel any better.  Que lastima.

Goodnight kids.

Im leaving for Mexico in less than 16 hours!!  I cant wait for the 90 degree weather and the muscle building.  Not to mention all the sexy Mexicans.  (that last one might be a lie)

On the down side, I just found out (as in like 5 min ago) that one of my friends, who is a year younger than me, has some rare form of breast cancer.  A week before her birthday.  Sweet.  Welcome to the real, adult world.